This last week has been full of wonderful experiences as I have adjusted to my new calling as an assistant and have begun to work more fully in my new area. As I ponder over this last week, I think I would like to share a special experience I've had this last week in regards to my new calling as an assistant.
As my senior companion left last Monday, the realization of the calling I have received began to set in. As it did, so did quite a bit of introspection as I considered my many weaknesses in comparison to the very large task that has been set in front of me. I have felt particularly inadequate as I have considered my comparatively young age in the mission to many others that could be serving in this position. I felt much like Enoch did when he was called into his ministry being "but a lad, and...slow of speech" (Moses 6:31). However, after much pondering and consideration, I decided to ask the Lord why he chose me to fulfill this calling when so many others seem to be more qualified. It was then I received an extraordinary spiritual experience in which the Lord made it very clear to me that He had chosen me and that I just needed to "have faith in [Him]." After that experience, all of my anxiety and feeling of inadequacy has left, and now I am left with peace and a great excitement as I go about my new task.
I have come to realize even more so throughout the mission that the Lord does not choose His servants the way a man would. Perhaps we all may find ourselves in a calling at some time or another where we feel very much like Enoch and Moses, inadequate and uncomfortable. However, I have come to know even more so this last week that we must follow the example of Ammon, and not necessarily "boast in [our] own strength...[for indeed we] are weak" but we can have faith in our God, "for in his strength [we] can do all things" (Alma 26:11-12). As a missionary, it has been ever more easy to be reminded of my many weaknesses, but it has been in these times that I have felt most weak that I have felt that hand of the Lord ever stronger in my life. I have taken great comfort to the knowledge that if we "have faith in [Him], then will [He] make weak things become strong unto [us]." (Ether 12:27).
In terms of the work, everything is going great and we have been seeing miracles every day. And, we have some baptisms coming up! I will tell you more about that next week!
Love,
Elder Pulley
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